I’m trying really really hard not to beat myself up about not keeping to my goal of one post a day, M-F.
A lot of things have been going on, and nothing has been going on, if that makes any sense. Most things are internal. I have something I’m working through and it’s been a long struggle and it will continue to be a long struggle.
In other news that’s barely related… My husband and I are going on a trip to Arizona in just about two weeks (15 days, but who’s counting?) Today he sends me a text that his bosses are going nuts about some problem that means he might have to travel “soon”, which can mean anything, since his travel plans are usually last minute.
I’m irritated about it. A few years ago, I would have just accepted it and hoped that it wouldn’t ruin our vacation. This time? This time, I told him I’d be going without him. Especially since his boss has already told him that he would never expect him to travel if he couldn’t or really didn’t think it was necessary.
This trip means to much to me, independantly of it being “our” vacation… We aren’t even planning on spending a lot of time together. He has friends down there, and I have my best friend down there. I refuse to stay home because he can’t tell his boss no, when his boss would understand. It’s not like this vacation isn’t scheduled.